1 Swede, 1 Singaporean.
Both our worlds collided in 2004, and merged in 2009.
Our base is now Sweden, and our centre always Him.
Propelling towards an insanely exciting future!
One never knows how integral the Internet has become to our lives till one loses it for a few days.
Though Emil and I didn't have Internet during our honeymoon (1 whole week!), at least it was something we went into knowingly (and so we mentally prepared ourselves to savour a week of true urban escape in the mountains of Norway).
However, when I came home from Swedish class on Tuesday and saw that the 'globe' sign which marked my Internet connection was missing, I, regretfully, actually panicked.
I think I had been relying on the Internet quite a bit to remain connected to my family and friends back home (mainly via Facebook, of course), and it had become a habit of mine to check Facebook daily. Not that I neglected other important things like learning Swedish and doing housework, but it became something I looked forward to, an 'escape' if you will, which allowed me to imagine I was still very much home in Singapore.
Emil was at work on Tuesday, and I suddenly found myself not really knowing what to do. Unable to check emails or Facebook, unable to blog, unable to surf to find that English-Swedish dictionary I've been wanting to buy at a bargain online if any, unable to even check the weather forecast for the week... And being the kind of person who can't sit still and while the time away, I had to find something to do.
So I - 1) Read 2 chapters of a book 2) Vacuumed the whole apartment 3) Washed the dishes 4) Cycled to the nearby grocery store 5) and Pounced on my husband the moment he got home.
I think I was trying to avoid the creeping feeling of loneliness.
Of course, Emil, the sweetheart he is, was very patient with me. But he also firmly told me that I could rise above this, that Internet really isn't everything, no matter how important it seemed to me at the time.
So the first day without Internet created some pretty major withdrawal symptoms in me, that when I look back now, has made me see some sides to myself that I need to deal with.
Yesterday, Wednesday, I decided to make full use of my time instead of pouting at home and staring at my computer, wishing for the 'globe' sign to reappear.
So I - 1) Watched an old movie 2) Read a book 3) Cycled downtown to the bookstore 4) Practised Swedish
And before I knew it, time flew by, Emil came home, and I also received my package from Singapore, which I had been really looking forward to. The rest of the day was quality time with Emil, just hanging out together and enjoying each other's company, without the frustration of the lack of Internet like the day before.
I really enjoyed it.
This morning, we finally got the Internet up and running. And here I find myself, catching up on all the juicy 'news' I had missed on Facebook, checking emails, and now posting a blog entry.
Strangely, I don't feel like staying in front of the computer for the rest of the afternoon.
So I shall - 1) Vacuum the whole apartment (again) and prepare it for cell group tonight 2) Wash and dry some clothes 3) Prepare fika for cell group tonight
Kind of a love-hate relationship I'm having with the Internet right now. It concerns me how dependent I've become on it, and yet, I do see it as a tool that enables almost instant communication.
Until I figure it out, I shall go enjoy Midsummer!... :)
